Wednesday, June 16, 2010

" [with hand motions] ...You do not belong here..."

I really enjoy a good movie - OOOO, great idea for what I want to be when I grow up... a movie critic! I am a GENIUS!

Anyway...yeah. Soooo, obviously nothing too interesting is going on.

Tomorrow I'm meeting all of my family in Beaumont and we're going out to eat for my birthday (a bit late, but I wanted everyone there). Can't wait for that!

I'm really looking forward to June 30th. Eclipse comes to theaters!! I am a Twilight fan - NOT a fanatic! I enjoyed the books and I really enjoy the movies, but I refuse to buy a tshirt, a tote bag, or notebook. Okay, I'd like a notebook and there was this one tshirt I'd get. It said, "And then Buffy stabbed Edward. The End." Loves it! ;)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

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Um...so...yeah... I'm 27 today. Kind of a bummer... A lot of looking at everyone else's green grass, ya know what I mean?

I have a new celebrity crush... Greg Kinnear. He just looks like a every-day-kinda guy. Like one you would see at the grocery store...and I could, like, help him find the right paper towel or something. Anyway... not much going on.

I might get a bunny today. So... that's good news!

Mom bought me like 300 Farmville dollars. So... that's good news, too!

My Dad bought me an electric/battery powered chainsaw for my birthday. So... that's good news!

I'm hoping to get a hammock, that was an IOU from last year's birthday... that's be great news!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Really...Why?!

I really don't know why I watch "Never Been Kissed" with Drew Barrymore. By the last ten minutes of the movie, I'm totally in tears and depressed. I feel like the main character, "...I'm 25 [well, I'LL be 27 in a couple of days] and I have never really been kissed..." Well, Josie - I'm 27 and I have never been kissed...period! Beat that!

My patriarchal blessing says to live for my blessings and "in due time..." Yep, yep... But, Heavenly Father, I need a date, not necessarily a time, a name maybe, I really don't need his address or phone number; I can find that.

It'll be nice to feel wanted, like physically, emotionally, spiritually, by a member of the opposite gender. To go to someone, besides my mom, with problems or good things.

It kinda works on ones self esteem ya know... to watch people much younger, or older even, find love, find love again, and sometimes again. I just want one chance - one person to not want to live without me, that wants to come to me with their problems and celebrations and experiences. Someone who just can't wait to talk to me in the morning and have to wake me up at 2am, just to hear my voice. Someone who calls me from work several times, just to see what I'm doing. Someone who wants to spend time with me and be concerned for me...and yes, someone to be with physically.

Who ever my Prince Charming is...I love you already. I'm waiting...not so patiently, but waiting still! I've kept myself clean for you and I'm living for you everyday. Now, we just need to find each other! Where are you?!